NOTHINGS CHANGED.....

OKAY SO NOTHINGS CHANGED AND I FEEL I NEED TO POST ANYWAYS. I REALLY NEED TO GET SERIOUS ABOUT FINDING A JOB THOUGH! I REALLY DON'T WANT TO CUZ I KNOW IT'S GONNA BE A HUGE PAY CUT BUT UNEMPLOYMENT WON'T SUPPORT ME FOREVER AND I DON'T WANT TO BE DEPENDENT ON MY BOYFRIEND..... I DIDN'T MENTION HIM YET. HE'S CURRENTLY LIVING AT THE COUNTY COURT HOUSE SERVING A "WORK RELEASE" SENTENCE FOR DUI. HE GETS OUT THIS SUNDAY. HONESTLY I DON'T KNOW IF I WANT HIM TO COME HOME. HE'S CHANGED ALOT AND IS SUPER UNPLEASANT TO BE AROUND I THINK ON TOP OF WHATS ALREADY GOING ON. I'M GONNA BE SUICIDAL BY MONDAY!

OH AND WHY IS IT THAT MEN CAN BE SUPER NICE AND WILLING TO DO ANYTHING AND TREAT YOU LIKE A PRINCESS, UNTIL THEY MOVE IN AND THEN IMMEDIATELY TURN INTO SELFISH, LAZY, WHINERS THAT BITCH AND MOAN ALL THE TIME? AND WHATS UP WITH BEING TOTALLY COOL AND SOCIAL AND THEN TURNING INTO A CRAZY JEALOUS MONSTERS? I HATE THAT SHIT! SERIOUSLY DON'T GET ALL KINDS OF CRAZY IDEAS IN YOUR HEAD JUST BECAUSE YOU TRIED TO CALL ME WHEN I WAS IN THE BATHROOM OR SLEEPING! AND IF I GO OUT WITH FRIENDS DON'T ASK ME 100 QUESTIONS AND PRETEND THAT IT'S BECAUSE YOUR INTERESTED. WE BOTH KNOW IT'S BECAUSE YOUR INSECURE AND EVEN THOUGH I'VE TOLD YOU A THOUSAND TIMES I WON'T PUT UP WITH THAT SHIT! AND I WILL BREAK UP WITH YOU OVER IT, YOU STILL CAN'T HELP YOURSELF, YOU HAVE TO KNOW. HONESTLY IT'S JUST AS BAD AS SAYING "SO DID YOU FUCK ANYONE LAST NIGHT" !!!!

OF COARSE BY THE END OF THE WEEK I WON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT THAT ANYMORE. HE'LL BE HERE AND HE'LL COME WITH ME EVERYWHERE I GO AND KNOW AT ALL TIMES WHERE I AM AND WHO I'M WITH. AND IF I GO OUT BEFORE HE GETS OF WORK HE'LL FIND ME AND MEET UP WITH ME AND ACT LIKE HE OWNS ME AND MAKE NO ONE WANT TO TALK TO ME CUZ BIG HUGE CRAZY GUY'S GOT HIS ARM AROUND ME AT ALL TIMES!

AND I CAN FORGET ABOUT HANGIN OUT WITH ANY GUY FRIENDS IF HE CAN'T BE THERE CUZ HE WOULD TOTALLY FREAK OUT!

SO ALL IN ALL.... I NEED A JOB...... AND MY FUTURE LOOKS PRETTY FUCKIN BLEAK!