OKAY SO NOTHINGS CHANGED AND I FEEL I NEED TO POST ANYWAYS. I REALLY NEED TO GET SERIOUS ABOUT FINDING A JOB THOUGH! I REALLY DON'T WANT TO CUZ I KNOW IT'S GONNA BE A HUGE PAY CUT BUT UNEMPLOYMENT WON'T SUPPORT ME FOREVER AND I DON'T WANT TO BE DEPENDENT ON MY BOYFRIEND..... I DIDN'T MENTION HIM YET. HE'S CURRENTLY LIVING AT THE COUNTY COURT HOUSE SERVING A "WORK RELEASE" SENTENCE FOR DUI. HE GETS OUT THIS SUNDAY. HONESTLY I DON'T KNOW IF I WANT HIM TO COME HOME. HE'S CHANGED ALOT AND IS SUPER UNPLEASANT TO BE AROUND I THINK ON TOP OF WHATS ALREADY GOING ON. I'M GONNA BE SUICIDAL BY MONDAY!
OH AND WHY IS IT THAT MEN CAN BE SUPER NICE AND WILLING TO DO ANYTHING AND TREAT YOU LIKE A PRINCESS, UNTIL THEY MOVE IN AND THEN IMMEDIATELY TURN INTO SELFISH, LAZY, WHINERS THAT BITCH AND MOAN ALL THE TIME? AND WHATS UP WITH BEING TOTALLY COOL AND SOCIAL AND THEN TURNING INTO A CRAZY JEALOUS MONSTERS? I HATE THAT SHIT! SERIOUSLY DON'T GET ALL KINDS OF CRAZY IDEAS IN YOUR HEAD JUST BECAUSE YOU TRIED TO CALL ME WHEN I WAS IN THE BATHROOM OR SLEEPING! AND IF I GO OUT WITH FRIENDS DON'T ASK ME 100 QUESTIONS AND PRETEND THAT IT'S BECAUSE YOUR INTERESTED. WE BOTH KNOW IT'S BECAUSE YOUR INSECURE AND EVEN THOUGH I'VE TOLD YOU A THOUSAND TIMES I WON'T PUT UP WITH THAT SHIT! AND I WILL BREAK UP WITH YOU OVER IT, YOU STILL CAN'T HELP YOURSELF, YOU HAVE TO KNOW. HONESTLY IT'S JUST AS BAD AS SAYING "SO DID YOU FUCK ANYONE LAST NIGHT" !!!!
OF COARSE BY THE END OF THE WEEK I WON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT THAT ANYMORE. HE'LL BE HERE AND HE'LL COME WITH ME EVERYWHERE I GO AND KNOW AT ALL TIMES WHERE I AM AND WHO I'M WITH. AND IF I GO OUT BEFORE HE GETS OF WORK HE'LL FIND ME AND MEET UP WITH ME AND ACT LIKE HE OWNS ME AND MAKE NO ONE WANT TO TALK TO ME CUZ BIG HUGE CRAZY GUY'S GOT HIS ARM AROUND ME AT ALL TIMES!
AND I CAN FORGET ABOUT HANGIN OUT WITH ANY GUY FRIENDS IF HE CAN'T BE THERE CUZ HE WOULD TOTALLY FREAK OUT!
SO ALL IN ALL.... I NEED A JOB...... AND MY FUTURE LOOKS PRETTY FUCKIN BLEAK!
Monday, September 21, 2009
Thursday, September 10, 2009
I WRITE IN CAPS!
THANK GOD FOR THIS! I'VE BEEN MEANING TO DO THIS FOREVER! I NEED A JOURNAL OR SOMETHING LIKE IT! SO BAD! OH AND ABOUT THE ALL CAPS THING I DON'T KNOW IT'S JUST FASTER AND I FIGURE NO ONE WILL EVER READ THIS ANYWAYS AND IF THEY DO OH WELL ...THIS IS AN ANGRY BLOG ANYWAYS! I HAVE ANOTHER BLOG AND IT'S A BEAUTY BLOG, I'M SUPER NICE ABOUT EVERYTHING AND DON'T TALK ABOUT ANY OF THE BAD STUFF. JUST SUPER SWEET ME, IN AN ALMOST PERFECT WORLD. I LOVE MY OTHER BLOG IT BRINGS ME HAPPINESS ...BUT OCCASIONALLY I NEED TO BE REAL AN EXPRESS MY FRUSTRATION WITH MY "IRRITATINGLY FUCKED UP FAMILY AND LIFE"!
OKAY SO THAT'S THE BIRTH STORY OF THE BLOG. ON WITH THE VENTING!
NORMALLY MY "IRRITATINGLY FUCKED UP FAMILY" DOESN'T BOTHER ME. I'M PRETTY WELL ADJUSTED, BUT MANY MONTHS AGO MY DAD, SISTER AND NOW MY MOTHER MOVED IN WITH ME! THEY NEEDED A PLACE TO LIVE AND I'M THEIR ONLY OPTION, SO THEY SAY. OH AND FOR THE RECORD MY PARENTS SPILT UP LIKE 12 YEARS AGO OR SO. LIVING WITH THEM HAS DRIVEN ME TO NEAR INSANITY! I CAN'T STAND IT. I GET ALONG OKAY WITH MY DAD MOST OF THE TIME, BUT MY MOM AND SISTER DRIVE ME CRAZY! I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH MORE I CAN TAKE AND I'M ABOUT READY TO WALK INTO ONCOMING TRAFFIC.
ALSO WHILE I'M LAYIN OUT FACTS AND BACKSTORY LET ME INTRUDUCE YOU TO EVERYONE AND THEIR CURRENT STATUS:
ME: I'M UNEMPLOYED. I GOT LAID OFF AND MY UNEMPLOYMENT IS ABOUT TO RUN OUT. I PAY ALL THE BILLS AND RENT BY MYSELF. I'M HAPPILY DIVORCED, WITH 3 CHILDREN. I MOVED OUT WHEN I WAS 17 AND HAVE BEEN SUPPORTING MYSELF EVER SINCE.
DAD: UNEMPLOYED, NOT IN VERY GOOD HEALTH AND IS A RECOVERING DRUG ADDICT. WHEN I SAY RECOVERING I MEAN HE ONLY DOES DRUGS OCCASIONALLY AND NOT AT MY HOUSE. HE DOSE STILL SMOKE POT (NOT AROUND MY KIDS!) WHICH I DON'T CARE ABOUT BECAUSE EVERYONE IN MY FAMILY DOES, FOR THE MOST PART. HE CONTRIBUTES TO THE HOUSE WITH HIS FOOD STAMPS AND DOES HOUSE HOLD CHORES LIKE THE DISHES. THIS ISN'T THE FIRST TIME MY DAD HAS LIVED WITH ME AND HE IS THE MOST RESPECTFUL OF THE BUNCH. HE SLEEPS IN THE LIVING ROOM. MY DAD HAS A GIRLFRIEND THAT I CAN'T STAND, MOSTLY BECAUSE SHE'S A CRACK WHORE (IN MY OPINION)
SISTER: MY SISTER HAS TWO JOBS, BOTH OF WHICH ARE PART TIME. SHE HAS 2 CATS AND LIVES IN MY GARAGE. SHE HAS NO MONEY EVER AND EVERY TIME SHE SAVES ANY SHE BLOWS IT ON HER WORTHLESS, NO ACCOUNT LOSER BOYFRIEND! THE MAIN REASON SHE HAS NO MONEY MIGHT BE THAT SHE SMOKES MORE WEED THEN ANY ONE PERSON EVER SHOULD...... ESPECIALLY SOMEONE LIVING IN HER YOUNGER SISTER GARAGE WHO'S TRYING TO "SAVE UP TO MOVE OUT"! EVEN THOUGH THIS IS AN ANGRY, GUILT FREE VENTING BLOG I FEEL COMPELLED TO MENTION THAT SHE HAS BEEN IN POOR HEALTH AND UNABLE TO WORK MUCH IN THE LAST 5 WEEKS. SHE DOESN'T CONTRIBUTE MUCH TO THE HOUSE WITH THE EXCEPTION OF HER NOT SO CHEERFUL CHARACTER. MY BIGGEST PROBLEM WITH MY SISTER IS HER INTERFERENCE WITH MY CHILDREN. SHE OCCASIONALLY FORGETS THAT SHE'S ONLY AROUND BECAUSE SHE HAS NO WHERE ELSE TO GO. AND THAT IN MY BOOK IS NO REASON FOR YOUR OPINIONS AND IDEAS TO HAVE MERRITT!
MOM: UNEMPLOYED, GETTING UNEMPLOYMENT. ALWAYS BROKE! SHE'S SOME WHAT OF AN ALCOHOLIC BUT IS MUCH MUCH BETTER THAN SHE USED TO BE! SHE OCCASIONALLY COMES HOME FROM THE BAR AT NIGHT DRUNK AND STARTS A FIGHT WITH MY SISTER IN THE GARAGE. SHE NEVER REMEMBERS AND IF SHE DOES IT'S NOT HOW SHIT WENT DOWN! SHE'S ALWAYS THE VICTIM IN EVERYTHING! SHE CREATES ALL HER OWN PROBLEMS, BUT SHE'LL NEVER SHE THAT! MY MOM IS AND HAS ALWAYS BEEN CRAZY. NOT 100% OR ANYTHING, BUT DEFINITELY HAS SOME MAJOR ISSUES WITH REALITY! SHE ALSO HAS MAJOR ISSUES WITH MY PARENTING SKILLS AND TECHNIQUE. BUT I DON'T GIVE A RATS ASS ABOUT THAT CUZ I HAVE SOME MAJOR ISSUES WITH HERS! MY MOM DOESN'T CONTRIBUTE ANYTHING TO THE HOUSE BUT TENSION AND THE OH SO FUN DRUNK SCREAMING ABOUT HOW "NO ONE CARES"! MY BIGGEST PROBLEM WITH MY MOM IS THE OVERWHELMING DESIRE TO PROTECT MY CHILDREN FROM HER!
OKAY SO THERE WE HAVE SOME BASIC KNOWLEDGE. THE REST WILL COME EVENTUALLY.
OKAY SO THAT'S THE BIRTH STORY OF THE BLOG. ON WITH THE VENTING!
NORMALLY MY "IRRITATINGLY FUCKED UP FAMILY" DOESN'T BOTHER ME. I'M PRETTY WELL ADJUSTED, BUT MANY MONTHS AGO MY DAD, SISTER AND NOW MY MOTHER MOVED IN WITH ME! THEY NEEDED A PLACE TO LIVE AND I'M THEIR ONLY OPTION, SO THEY SAY. OH AND FOR THE RECORD MY PARENTS SPILT UP LIKE 12 YEARS AGO OR SO. LIVING WITH THEM HAS DRIVEN ME TO NEAR INSANITY! I CAN'T STAND IT. I GET ALONG OKAY WITH MY DAD MOST OF THE TIME, BUT MY MOM AND SISTER DRIVE ME CRAZY! I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH MORE I CAN TAKE AND I'M ABOUT READY TO WALK INTO ONCOMING TRAFFIC.
ALSO WHILE I'M LAYIN OUT FACTS AND BACKSTORY LET ME INTRUDUCE YOU TO EVERYONE AND THEIR CURRENT STATUS:
ME: I'M UNEMPLOYED. I GOT LAID OFF AND MY UNEMPLOYMENT IS ABOUT TO RUN OUT. I PAY ALL THE BILLS AND RENT BY MYSELF. I'M HAPPILY DIVORCED, WITH 3 CHILDREN. I MOVED OUT WHEN I WAS 17 AND HAVE BEEN SUPPORTING MYSELF EVER SINCE.
DAD: UNEMPLOYED, NOT IN VERY GOOD HEALTH AND IS A RECOVERING DRUG ADDICT. WHEN I SAY RECOVERING I MEAN HE ONLY DOES DRUGS OCCASIONALLY AND NOT AT MY HOUSE. HE DOSE STILL SMOKE POT (NOT AROUND MY KIDS!) WHICH I DON'T CARE ABOUT BECAUSE EVERYONE IN MY FAMILY DOES, FOR THE MOST PART. HE CONTRIBUTES TO THE HOUSE WITH HIS FOOD STAMPS AND DOES HOUSE HOLD CHORES LIKE THE DISHES. THIS ISN'T THE FIRST TIME MY DAD HAS LIVED WITH ME AND HE IS THE MOST RESPECTFUL OF THE BUNCH. HE SLEEPS IN THE LIVING ROOM. MY DAD HAS A GIRLFRIEND THAT I CAN'T STAND, MOSTLY BECAUSE SHE'S A CRACK WHORE (IN MY OPINION)
SISTER: MY SISTER HAS TWO JOBS, BOTH OF WHICH ARE PART TIME. SHE HAS 2 CATS AND LIVES IN MY GARAGE. SHE HAS NO MONEY EVER AND EVERY TIME SHE SAVES ANY SHE BLOWS IT ON HER WORTHLESS, NO ACCOUNT LOSER BOYFRIEND! THE MAIN REASON SHE HAS NO MONEY MIGHT BE THAT SHE SMOKES MORE WEED THEN ANY ONE PERSON EVER SHOULD...... ESPECIALLY SOMEONE LIVING IN HER YOUNGER SISTER GARAGE WHO'S TRYING TO "SAVE UP TO MOVE OUT"! EVEN THOUGH THIS IS AN ANGRY, GUILT FREE VENTING BLOG I FEEL COMPELLED TO MENTION THAT SHE HAS BEEN IN POOR HEALTH AND UNABLE TO WORK MUCH IN THE LAST 5 WEEKS. SHE DOESN'T CONTRIBUTE MUCH TO THE HOUSE WITH THE EXCEPTION OF HER NOT SO CHEERFUL CHARACTER. MY BIGGEST PROBLEM WITH MY SISTER IS HER INTERFERENCE WITH MY CHILDREN. SHE OCCASIONALLY FORGETS THAT SHE'S ONLY AROUND BECAUSE SHE HAS NO WHERE ELSE TO GO. AND THAT IN MY BOOK IS NO REASON FOR YOUR OPINIONS AND IDEAS TO HAVE MERRITT!
MOM: UNEMPLOYED, GETTING UNEMPLOYMENT. ALWAYS BROKE! SHE'S SOME WHAT OF AN ALCOHOLIC BUT IS MUCH MUCH BETTER THAN SHE USED TO BE! SHE OCCASIONALLY COMES HOME FROM THE BAR AT NIGHT DRUNK AND STARTS A FIGHT WITH MY SISTER IN THE GARAGE. SHE NEVER REMEMBERS AND IF SHE DOES IT'S NOT HOW SHIT WENT DOWN! SHE'S ALWAYS THE VICTIM IN EVERYTHING! SHE CREATES ALL HER OWN PROBLEMS, BUT SHE'LL NEVER SHE THAT! MY MOM IS AND HAS ALWAYS BEEN CRAZY. NOT 100% OR ANYTHING, BUT DEFINITELY HAS SOME MAJOR ISSUES WITH REALITY! SHE ALSO HAS MAJOR ISSUES WITH MY PARENTING SKILLS AND TECHNIQUE. BUT I DON'T GIVE A RATS ASS ABOUT THAT CUZ I HAVE SOME MAJOR ISSUES WITH HERS! MY MOM DOESN'T CONTRIBUTE ANYTHING TO THE HOUSE BUT TENSION AND THE OH SO FUN DRUNK SCREAMING ABOUT HOW "NO ONE CARES"! MY BIGGEST PROBLEM WITH MY MOM IS THE OVERWHELMING DESIRE TO PROTECT MY CHILDREN FROM HER!
OKAY SO THERE WE HAVE SOME BASIC KNOWLEDGE. THE REST WILL COME EVENTUALLY.
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